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Porthos watches the interplay between them, picking up enough Spanish to hear 'husband', but not much else. He works on digging out what he needs for the ceviche and the mango salsa, bowls set up on the table as he studies the both of them. "Don't give him the role of the patient. That feels a touch like bringing on bad luck."

Aramis watches Lito rise with a frown, sitting back to give Lito room to walk away from him, and raises a brow when he seats himself near Porthos instead. "Too many recent, unhappy memories," he agrees, twisting on the chaise so he does not have to strain to look at them.

"I would not like to be a janitor."

Lito breathes in sharply and misses the smell of Hernando's cologne and the way their kitchen always smelled. He misses the coffee in his hand and it reminds him that this isn't his home, but that of someone else. He feels lonely, presented with a happy couple, a man with another man, and all the things he'd been too cowardly to fight for.

"Maybe, then, a family member?" Lito suggests, giving Aramis a worried look. "What happened recently?"

Porthos doesn't want to go heavy into the details because to him, Lito is still a stranger. It's a stranger who keeps staring at him and who is, admittedly, pretty. Handsome, maybe? He might even have Aramis beat, just given his jawline and other aspects of his body.

"Long story," is all Porthos says gruffly. "You said you're not working yet? Aramis, you're already bothering him?" he teases.

Aramis' frown deepens to a scowl as Porthos begins staring at Lito in return, and he turns around to face his wine glass before he suggests he leave the pair of them alone to appreciate one another. "It would be fun to have a small part," he tells his glass. "Athos would enjoy it. He only pretends not to watch the show."

Lito wonders why Aramis turns from them, so, but then he reminds himself that he is close to staring and is going to get caught out, at this rate. He swallows back that loneliness and glances at Aramis. "Athos?" he echoes. "Who is this Athos?"

"He's sort of our other boyfriend," Porthos replies, a touch cautious and yet at the same time, he wants to stubbornly lift his chin and invoke the fighting or the disdain that usually comes of such an announcement. "And you two can enjoy that show all you like. I prefer something with more action."

"It's not our fault you missed the sequence where diseased space pirates took the emergency bay hostage," replies Aramis, turning to look at Lito.

"We are a trio, even if only two of us can legally be wed. Lest you think us greedy, I assure you, we are quite content at three."

"And such a thing is accepted?" Lito asks, turning to Aramis now. "If people know that about you, they're going to judge you differently. It will affect the roles you can get," he says, because personal experience has shown him this much and he does not mean to be cruel, but passing along such information seems necessary.

"Besides, I'm straight," he protests, for Aramis' half-flirtation.

Porthos shakes his head as he starts to cut up fruits, thinking that none of the plots on Aramis' soap opera make any sense and fantastical plots are something he doesn't need to think about in depth. "It's okay, he wasn't recruiting either," Porthos assures.

"Not everyone wants you, chou."

"I believe I offered the opposite of an invitation," replies Aramis, refilling his glass. "Such talk makes Lito uncomfortable." He sips at his wine. "I don't mean to make a career of it, regardless," he says. "But I do not think it would matter if I did. I would be playing a role, not myself - who cares what I do at home?"

"That is not the case. If you are gay, you cannot do certain roles. Action and sometimes, romance. They will often not believe that you can," Lito says, beginning to grow more passionate about this. For years and years, he had needed to hide. For someone to tell him that it should not matter, it makes him almost angry.

"Many people care. And they will be hateful and they can ruin your career."

Porthos starts to grow mildly suspicious about the vehemence with which he argues, mainly because no one is ever that argumentative and firm about something they don't care about. "No talk that makes him uncomfortable, then," he agrees, cutting up the fruits still as he gives Aramis a silent look of curiosity, asking what he thinks about the situation.

Aramis raises a brow, for it has always been thus when Aramis speaks openly of his affection for another man. Lito protests entirely too much, raising his suspicions all over again.

"There are always people who will be hateful," he says, choosing to do the opposite of what Porthos has advised. "We have decided not to care. Being with Porthos is more important to me than anyone's fear and hatred."

Lito feels as if he has been assaulted by a sharp sword, because he did not do that. He bows his head to hide the fall of his features, guilt and pain and sorrow at losing Hernando for not doing that exact thing. "If they can take your career away, though, and you have worked all your life for it..."

He shakes his head. "And if you lost your commission for him?" he asks, as if Porthos is not standing right there beside him.

"I'd give it all up," Porthos cuts in, because while he hadn't been addressed (and he doesn't like being ignored), he feels like he has to say something. "Aramis is right. If you really love someone, then you should pick them. And if you lose your career, be it acting or the Musketeers, then you both find something new together."

He grimaces, because it's been hard getting Athos on board with that, but it's what he feels in his heart.

"If an actor loves his career more than his lover, then so be it," says Aramis, for he knows some men would put it all aside for purpose or duty, even if he has never been one of them.

"But there is nothing I would not give up for Porthos, and if I had only lost my commission at home instead of my life for loving him, I'd have found a way to make us both happy again. I don't mean to say it would be easy," he adds, looking at Lito. "Far from it. But for him I would do it."

"Then you are very brave to put everything on the line. I have known many friends and actors who did not, because they had seen what happens to gay men in the movie business," Lito says, serious and calm. He thinks, though, that if Hernando were here, he might begin to think otherwise. "I have seen careers ruined."

"Not that it matters to me," he adds. "I had a lovely girlfriend at home, though, Daniela, who had a dear friend who was gay. And he risked losing his career because of it."

Porthos eyes Lito again, starting to cut the fish next as he expertly wields his knife and glances at Aramis pointedly, wondering why he's brought them a drunken, babbling, confusing man. Then again, he's also a bit soppy and romantic for the things that Aramis has said. "So, why is it you care so much about whether Aramis goes into things? Because he might be successfully and married to a man?" he challenges.

"I am not going to go into things," says Aramis, standing when he senses Porthos growing agitated. He places a hand at the small of his back. "Not when I can simply stand there for pictures and they will give me money for it."

He rubs Porthos' back soothingly, watching Lito seem to wrestle with himself. It looks exhausting. "This dear friend of Daniela's," he says, "I am glad he had her to confide in, then. It must be terrible to struggle with so much and have no one to talk to."

Lito eyes the both of them with no small amount of envy, for he cannot have what they do, he cannot do anything but ache and dream for it. He reaches for the bottle of wine to top himself off, feeling as if he needs it more than ever. He tops it all the way to the brim, drinking it down eagerly. "He is worried," he murmurs. "People where I come from, they're not so open minded."

"I have to start modelling as well. Brian is starting to book me gigs, to get back into things."

Porthos leans back into the touch gratefully, not sure why he can get so riled up about these things, but he is. "Do you have personal experience with that, then?" Porthos asks cautiously, because he hates when being aren't honest about themselves. Aramis can poke him if he's prodding too much, but despite the ease of Lito's talk and the lack of deceit, it doesn't ring right to him.

"I believe Darrow would be kinder than your home," Aramis adds, though he does not say just kinder to who, Lito or this friend of his girlfriend's.

"I did not know you had a girlfriend," he continues. "Sometimes I think you miss someone - it must be her. What is she like?"

Lito is still unsure of this, having been in the business for so many years now that he feels he has enough experience to know just what the business would do to him. "Daniela is spirited and beautiful," he says, smiling with genuine fondness now as he begins to talk of her. He does love her, but he's not in love with her. "And I miss her so deeply with all my heart that it aches to be here, and to see you two so happy."

"But I have been seeing someone new," he says. "Demelza. She's very kind and good-hearted."

Porthos raises a brow as he throws the fish together with the acids, holding a piece out for Aramis to try as Lito talks about both this Daniela from home and someone from here. So maybe he's like the both of them and goes both ways, but Porthos can't help but suspect that Lito might have a part of himself he's not acknowledging.

"I felt that way, seeing Aramis with other people sometimes," he confesses. "Here, in Darrow. It made me beyond jealous, to see him shared without me there."